My Friend Doesn't See Straight

Laura: "You're way too cute"
Me: "Hah no, I think you're truly mistaken"
Laura: "I speak fact, woman"
Me: "Just wait until you meet me. None of my friends have ever called me "cute" except for my gay housemate hah. I'm like a sleepy, lazy lion waiting for its prey. Surely that's in no way cute"
Laura: "lol!!"
Me: ".. and I'm pretty sure he only called me cute when I stole his hat"
*Shows picture of me wearing hat*
Laura: "you are totally adorable"
Me: "What. No. I am as evil as they come"
Laura: "you just made me think of Stiles calling Derek cute, and him being like 'I'm not cute. I'm a fierce alpha wolf!'"
Me: "Seriously. I am"
Laura: "and Stiles just petting his head and being like 'oh, so cute'"
Me: "So you're Stiles and I'm Derek? I can live with that. But MOSTLY because Derek isn't cute"

I Have The Weirdest Coversations With My Family

Mum: "I'm taking the trash out. Do you want to throw anything away?"
Me: "My soul"
Mum: "What are you saying, child. At least sell it and get a little money out of it.
Just not to the Devil, that wouldn't be too good"
Me: "But selling your soul to the Devil is the best part"

Phosphorescent - Wolves

Perfection.

Wedding Dress

Okay, so can this be my wedding dress if (yes, if) I ever get married? It's so pretty.

(I know it's early, we need the groom to discover me and stuff but shhh)

Note To Self About Video

Sterek. Stiles hallucinations. Party drug. Cut to Derica make-out. 

Hallucinations that Derek died but that it's Stiles' fault. He could have drowned in the pool.
Sony editing. Look at Soulmates Never Die.

Fictional Characters

"But what people don’t realize is that, when it comes to fictional characters, they are just as 
real to us as our friends or lovers or siblings or parents. It doesn’t matter that we can’t touch them
 or visit them or engage with them in conversation. What matters is that they’ve made an 
impact on our lives and that is what makes them real"

Can this just be published at the beginning of every book, tv-series and film? Thanks.

The Art of Seduction

"Careful who you play with Stiles, you never know when they might play back" 

Wild Animals

"This boy plays with wolves like he has never been told not to trust wild animals"

We Are Shining

"Isaac looks from Stiles to Derek, then at Peter when he grabs him by the arm.

"Come on, we need to go for a walk," Isaac says, 

leading Peter towards the door as Stiles stands there, awkwardly.

"You realize we're not actual dogs, right?" Peter mouths off, but lets himself get escorted out anyway"

I can't help it. It's too funny. Sassy uncle Peter's amazing.

Body Oil Functions

Me: "My older brother gave me body oil as a birthday present. All I can think of is sexual use of that"

Friend: "Hahahaha! I use body oil every day"

Me: "In a sexual way?"

Friend: "HAHAHAA nooo"

Me: "Was gonna say.."

Fuck Yes

"You will be their master and they will do all that you please"

- My friend about my future American celebrity lovers

Note To Self

Equinox

Leadership

"It had taken years and nightmares brought to life for him to realize the obvious truth that his sister, any leader, 
had fears and worries and weaknesses of their own, and that real strength lay 
in their ability to know which to control alone and which to share"

You Fucking Perfect Human Being

Can I just say I love you, Hoechlin? And then I'll go die somewhere. Yes? Okay? Okay. Bye.

Bonding Time (No, Not That Way)

You know those days where you just can't explain why you're having a bad day but you just are? Those days where everything just seems to go wrong or annoy you. Where you can't help but feel so frustrated because, thinking back at what has happened so far during the day, nothing stands out to justify your mood.

What if it's because we each have a special bond to someone. Someone we may or may not have met yet but who's connected to us. It doesn't matter if we already know them - the point is we're connected. We're not the ones having a bad day, they are. Somewhere on Earth that person's having one of those days and because of the connect we get a rush of irritation out of nowhere. And when we have bad days, they feel the effects too. So it goes both ways.

For some inexplicable reason this thought makes me rather happy.

Like A Melody

"Derek knows something, something to do with Stiles, something to do with the headache, 

and he's keeping it from him. That is just... infuriating. And just like Derek too. 

Some people keep their cards close to the vest; Derek eats his. 

That's the kind of insanity Stiles is dealing with here"

The Things You Read Online - My God

"Stiles prays no one calls the cops because the sounds he’s making are inhuman 

and he doesn’t want anyone to shoot Derek until he’s been fucked raw"

Make Peace With Your Demons

"If you're mine, then I can lose you. Don't you understand?"

Taking Off The Edges

".. and Derek is sprawled the length of his sheets like a heroic statue that's somehow breathing"

Stiles Asks A Question And

"Derek doesn't answer, of course. Because Derek's a one-man Fortress of Solitude. 

Superman could totally turn Derek into a celestial ice-palace and live in him"

Empty

"He gets it all off his chest until the weight is gone and he just feels hollow inside, 
like without all of that he’s just a shell of a boy, 
because everyone he knows has taken bits and pieces of him
 and almost no one has stopped to fill him back up"

So I'm In Love With A Hatter

"Trust me. I know a thing or two about liking people, and in time, 

after much chocolate and cream cake, ‘like’ turns into ‘what was his name again?’”

- The Hatter, Alice

It Was Not Intended To Be This Way But It Is

It seems my Blogspot has become a collection of random quotes. How odd.

They Say Patience Is A Virtue

Me (while proof-reading a document): "This is taking ages!"
Mom: "You have no patience"
Me: "But this is taking farrrr too long"
Mom: "You're like your dad. Have you not gotten anything from me?"
Me: "..."
Mom: "It's a miracle you managed to stay in my stomach for nine months. Knowing you, you would have jumped out after 4 if you could"
Me: ".. Ha-ha-ha"

*Five minutes later*
Me: "THIS IS TAKING FOREVER"

Misunderstanding of Words

Me: "Why don't I have a mac?"
Mom: "A what?"
Me: "A mac"
Mom: "Oh thank god, I thought you said a man"

Enough Ships For A Massive Marina

Me: Don't the guys in this picture look like Tyler and Colton?
Friend: YES THEY DO
Me: Hah, new ship!
Friend: Haha, you must have a massive marina now.
Friend: OH GOD THAT SOUNDS SO RUDE

Go For The Gold Quote

"Navigating through a crowd of drunk people is seriously ridiculous, 

it’s like trying to part the freaking Red Sea"

Cute Like Your Cats

Mom: "You're cute"
Me (sarcastically): "So cute"
Mom: "Like your cats"

What. I can't even..

Get Them Howling In Bed

A rather entertaining conversation I had with a friend about the TV series Teen Wolf,

werewolves and .. well, nakedness.

Me: Also, about Teen Wolf: I’ve never felt so relieved by the sight of a naked man with sharp claws.

Her: Hahahhahahah! I love this. Oh, I totally thought that was the norm for you! ;)

Me: Haven't seen too many with claws, gotta admit.

Her: Haven't come across many that are wolves! :P

Me: Hairy not your style, huh ;) haha. Must say.. Mine don't howl every full moon either.

Wish they did though, wouldn't let them go!

Her: Just get them howling in bed ;)

Me: Hahahahahaha, oh that'd be a sight!

Because The Pain Will Never Go Away

(Sometimes I Dream of You)

"Hide and seek," Stiles says and chuckles.

"It never works, I always find you," Derek mutters and Stiles laughs again.

"This time you wont, I’ve got a really good place," Stiles disappears from view and Derek hauls himself from under the car, finds him lounging on the hood. There’s a strip of skin between his jeans and his t-shirt, that line of hair just taunting him because Derek knows what it feels like under his fingers. Except he can’t feel it anymore, can’t run his tongue up at and feel the shivers in Stiles’s body, or they noises that Stiles would make.

"Well then I don’t want to play," Derek takes a step towards the house, brushes his hands against his jeans and looks up to find Stiles with his arms crossed in front of him. 

"You have to Derek," he says, in the voice he used to use whenever Derek got hurt, the irritated, worried voice. 

"Stiles," Stiles raises an eyebrow and grins, the annoying grin he used whenever he was trying to get Derek to do something he didn’t want to. Derek sighs. 

"You have to," Stiles says, holding his hand out, palm almost touching Derek’s chest. Derek closes his eyes because he doesn’t want to see that, doesn’t want to see Stiles hand on him. 

"Why?"

"Because you have to lose me," Stiles cocks his head to the side.

"I don’t want to," Derek walks around him and slams the door to the house, but not before Stiles’s voice echoes in his ears. 

"I know" 


 Some things just completely break me - and this is one of them.

Derek & Stiles // Red Riding Hood

Hades and Persephone

"Seems that I have been held, in some dreaming state
I twist in the waking world, never quite awake
No kiss, no gentle word could wake me from this slumber
Until I realise that it was you who held me under"

Internal Monologue

"Okay, so sleep might have been a good idea. I should do more of that. I like sleep, actually I love sleep. It's just that sleep and I aren't on the best of terms these days, like that one friend that you neglect too long and they get grumpy and reluctant when you ask if they want to hang out, because they feel like your back up plan?

 

Yeah, that's sleep and me these days"

Oscar Wilde Quote

"Art finds her own perfection within, and not outside of, herself.
She is not to be judged by any external standard of resemblance"

Conversations About Ships And Werewolves

After watching an episode of Teen Wolf where it was hinted that two characters (Stiles and Derek) might be it for eachother, I had to send a friend a message.

Me: "Derek needing human love and then cutting to Stiles' face! 

I died when I saw that! (I'm fangirling from my grave)"

Her: "It's über cute! Derek and Stiles! Alpha and Beta! Hahahh"

Me: "Gahhh welcome omboard hah. I love it. It HAS to happen. Sometime. Soon. Very soon"

Her: "Honesty...I think you'd spontaneously combust! ;)" 

Me: "Too many feelings.. Teen fucking wolf."

Her: "Teen-Fucking Awesome-Wolf"

Me: "That too. But mostly Teen fucking Wolf. Stiles being the teen. Derek being the wolf"

Her: "Ahhh yes! I remember you telling me this before ;) Derek + Stiles = Your love demise :p "

Me: "This ship will be my demise. I'll go down with it (or on it!). It'll be the Titanic all over again"

Her: "At least you'll happily go down with them! #OhMyGoshIDidntJustSayThat :P"

Me: "Hahaha. Ohh dear, anytime! But I think I'll be blogging from the grave after that"

Because Sterek needs to happen for my heart to feel okay again.

What Are You Doing To My Heart

"Then he’s kissing her and it's like he's been holding these promises there, hidden away in his mouth. He whispers them to her with his lips and tongue, and it’s like learning a new language. One all their own."

Perfection

"Sometimes he feels like there’s so much anger inside of him he’s going to drown in it, from the inside out, and what’s left will come pouring out of his nose, his mouth, his ears. Like the next time somebody breaks through his skin that he’ll bleed this endless pain and regret that sit like fire in his stomach and tightly strangle the beat of his heart and the breath in his lungs"

Complements Or Completes

“The trick, kiddo,” his mom replies slowly. 
“Is finding someone who complements you instead of completes you. 
You need to be complete on your own.”

Note To Self

Buy an SSD drive for your filmings.

That's it.

The Truth Be Told

"Is there a sexuality for women attracted to gay men/couples? There should be"

"Yes, it's called being a fangirl"

Awkwardly Funny Conversations You Have Sometimes

Dad (from the other room): "What's that noise?"

*Noise stops*

Me: "What?"

Dad: "Is your brother shaving?"

Me: "No, it's me shaving my legs"

Dad: ".. With your brother's razor?"

Me: "Hah what, no. With my own"

Dad: "Hah okay"

Yes Please.

Sir, teach me the rules to baseball and then fuck me senseless.

Awkward Situations

Well.. My dad came back from a shop earlier (guess who's the luckiest person in the world and got a Sony A57) and the following situation just made me laugh. After giving me the camera he awkwardly mentioned that when he went to the till the guy remembered our last visit. My dad and I had gone to decide which camera would be best and the guy had shown us around, describing each camera and its functions. 

Apparently the young man didn't remember my dad as much as he remembered me.. Awkward.

Wedding Proposal - Flashmob (Marry You)

Seriously the sweetest thing I've seen in a while.

Amazing husband this guy's going to make considering how breathtaking he made this.

21 Pictures That Will Restore Your Faith In Humanity

Right here. Seriously worth reading. 

Makes a bad day seem not so bad at all.

Thor, I Think You Mean God Of Perfection

I Believe His Exact Words Were

"Start planning on coming over here so we can see you as you've been missed"

My heart fluttered a little bit.

Note To Self

Asterisk. Work on it.

Film Quotes

"You absolute horror of a human being." 

- As Good as It Gets (1997)

“No matter what you do, no matter how awful, no-one ever thinks that they're a bad person.” 

- The Talented Mr. Ripley (1999)

Citadel

Should watch Citadel.

"Just out of British film CITADEL. Features about as shocking an opening scene as I've seen. Ever. Rest of film was pretty well done"

Yes

"For now, all I got is this script, and a pocket full of dreams."

Film Thoughts

"Studying film helped me understand how images can be manipulated to emotionally affect us. Even more important with today's mass media"

"A great film guides you towards a sophisticated visual literacy, wholly lacking in textbook-based education."

Guardian Article

Now A Major Motion Picture

Things Go Hand In Hand

Roses are red

Violets are blue

Sunflowers are yellow

I bet you were expecting something romantic but no, this is just gardening facts

Kim Jong Wan Quote

"All those numerous smiles and tears become an essay with a title called memories and it will be left on a bookshelf called recollections and dust will gather as time will flow by"

Guys I Find Attractive

Famous. Taken. Twice my age. Not real. Dead. Gay. Power-crazy Asgard God.

Supernatural Season Seven Finale Quote

"Every soul here is a monster. This is where they come to prey upon each other for all eternity"

Dog Names

Gonna call my future dog either Laila or Mjølnir (depending on its gender obviously). Yes.

This Is So My Life

Mumford & Sons - After The Storm

"And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears. 

And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears"

Seven Quote

"Picking up diamonds on a deserted island"

Kelly Cutrone Quote

“This is an important lesson to remember when you’re having a bad day, a bad month, or a shitty year. Things will change: you won’t feel this way forever. And anyway, sometimes the hardest lessons to learn are the ones your soul needs most. I believe you can’t feel real joy unless you’ve felt heartache. You can’t have a sense of victory unless you know what it means to fail. And you can’t be born anew until you’ve died.”

All The Time

Me all the time at the moment.

Sadness

I can't believe this has happened. My entire body's numb and I can't feel the pain
but my soul's aching like never before.

Things Stuck In My Head

"You seem like you would be the pretty type"

Once More

I've fucked it all up and I don't know how to fix it.

Talking Of Truth

Oh, and on a sidenote: I've got one of those Emma Swan powers. I can tell. So don't you even try,
I can always tell straight away. So give it up.

Truth Be Told In Pictures

All Out Of Luck And No Gain

I really don't know what to do anymore. Everything that can go wrong does and it seems I'm all out of any luck I may have had in the future. Not only do things not go okay, they seem to go as badly as possible. Anything I do or do not do goes the wrong way. I can do nothing but just stare at all my hard work go down the drain. I feel like King Midas but without the haunting irony of the gold. Instead everything I touch turns to ash.

If it was because I didn't work hard on this and didn't care, that would be acceptable. But I do my absolute best and I care so much for what I put my mind to that such results completely crush me. It's like no amount of work can make things change. It will just go wrong and I'll stand there helpless. Fighting won't help, I'm an emotional wreck at the verge of destruction by now.

I keep repeating how "it'll all be okay" but I'm running out of options.

What to do, what to do..

Quote Of The Day

"A ship is safe in harbour, but that's not what ships are for"

You Wish

"Do you believe there's intelligent life on other planets?" - "There's barely any intelligent life on this planet"

Animation Habits

As part of my animation module I'm now convinced it's natural to refer to people as "going out of frame" when they leave my line of vision.

Note From Friends

 'Be happier'.

Or was it 'seem happier'? I can't really tell the difference anymore.

Truth

I am losing everything but weight.

Daniel Gillies As Elijah

YOU FLAWLESS HUMAN BEING

24 Thoughts Per Second

Yes, that.

Note To Self

"I really love and admire your work" is a good way to start.

#WhatIWouldSayToAPersonINeverThoughtIWouldMeet #WishfulThinking

Another Zuhair Murad Dress

I accidentally stumbled upon this amazing dress. Zuhair Murad, you have outdone yourself yet again. This red wonder is stunning. I want it so badly.

Supernatural Fun

"Imagine if the light started flickering at a Supernatural convention.

Everybody would hit the floor and throw salt everywhere"

Film Geek Facts

Geek Fact: Cinema relies on the idea of persistence of vision, which suggests that the eye can be tricked into believing still photographic frames are in continuous motion if they are projected at a sufficiently fast speed.

Geek Fact: The three main lights required to illuminate a film star are key (in front), back (behind) and fill (next to the camera).

Geek Facts

Geek Fact: A strip of film consists of four elements - the emulsion, the substratum, the base and the backing.
The Simple Version: Digital consists of two elements - a 1 and a 0.

Leonid Afremov

I'm in love with Leonid Afremov's paintings again. Seriously want one for my birthday. 

Preferably one with a park full of trees and a couple walking in the distance. I wish.

Supernatural Quote

Probably one of my favourite quotes from Supernatural (S7E11), if not my favourite.

Frank: "Make yourself smile because you're alive and that's your job. And do it again the next week"

Dean: "So fake it?"
Frank: "I call it being professional. Do it right, with a smile, or don't do it"

Drawings For My Notebook

Drawings For My Notebook